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[19 Jul 2003|11:17am] |
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Well, I went with my mom to take my car into the shop today. Then, we went to Euless to get my paycheck...and then after that we went to Bobby's shop to look at skating dresses, for my long program..we got a couple of fabric samples so, today I am going to design a dress design that I like..So, I am going to pull out all my skating magazines, and fashion magazines to get some ideas..hehe.. I love designing new dresses, it's all very exciting. The fabric is really pretty, I have a dark purple with lace design on it..it's not velvet, I don't know exactly what kind of fabric it is...but, it's stretchy..then, the other fabric is a sheer light purple..it's really pretty!! I also got a new bag, new soakers, and guards! YAY! I need those really bad..since I have had hmm..3 pairs of guards from lost and found, and somehow they have all magically disappeared ( with the exception of the little girl sarah running off with one of mine b/c she "claims" it was hers..yeah, RIGHT) then, well my bag I have had for three years..and it's all torn up, so it's good to get another. My new blades should be in soon, I hope they help me with my jumps... OH OH! My jumps were better yesterday! I was SOOO EXCITED!!! I landed allof them.. I did this really HUGE double lutz, and little Carolyn came over to me and was like...Was that a triple you just did? lol, I felt so good..haha...well, it's nice getting a lot of new skating stuff..I just need new practice outfits, lol..oh well, maybe sometime soon..alright, well I am going to go design my dress... <3 Lauren
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| Bored.. |
[18 Jul 2003|11:38am] |
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hmm.. I really haven't been bored in a while... Usually I can get on the internet be okay..but, I have nothing to look at..hmm..does anyone have any good websites I could go too? Or any ideas on what I could do? yeah..just asking.. :/
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| Stupid judges |
[14 Jul 2003|02:41pm] |
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Well, I guess I will update here..So, I didn't pass my test :( It is upsetting..b/c I thought I did pass. I skated well, but, I have just figured judges don't know...I mean, seriously we need judges that have actually skated before and give you credit for the hard things you do well. Oh, well, I will pass next time for sure. I am thinking maybe all of this is happening for a reason you know, maybe it is making me into a stronger skater. Well, I skated this morning and my mom and granny came to watch me, and they said my jumps had gotten a lot better. That really made me feel good.. I have been hoping I would improve...so, yay!
I did quite a bit of shopping this past weekend ( lol, granny's in town, of course).. I needed new clothes so, that's good. I went to abercrombie and express..my mom decided to try on clothes at abercrombie..it was embarrasing..hmm, oh well, I didn't know anyone there anyways..well, I am going to go..later <3 Lauren
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| Yo! |
[09 Jul 2003|07:35pm] |
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I test tomorrow!! AHH, wish me luck.. I am going to go for this one, I don't want to fail again.. I am tired of working on these stupid field moves.. I WILL PASS!! I WILL PASS I WILL PASS I WILL PASS I WILL PASS..GUESS WHAT?? I WILL PASS!!!!
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| Morning.. |
[06 Jul 2003|08:31am] |
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Well, hello. Man, last night there was this cricket outside of my window driving me crazy when I was trying to sleep! Man! It was annoying I kept taping on the window hoping it would leave...I tried turning on the T.V. to drown it out and everything.. I finally just pressed all the covers against my head..and I finally went back to sleep. Well, I just thought I would write about that. Well, I think after church this morning my momma and I are going to go out to Lake Texoma to a marina out there to look around a bit..man! I hope we get a boat that would be so awesome..alright well, I think I am going to go run before church..if I had time..Later...<3.:Lauren:.
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[05 Jul 2003|08:57pm] |
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Well, the 4th was pretty ok I guess... Alycia and I went over to get my clothes over at cassandra's except..I didn't get them b/c it seems that she lost half of them or something.. I am going to be SO pissed if she did!! Damn..they were already trashed when we went over there at 5:30pm..yeah..well, then, I went over to Jay's and fed her animals. Then, we decided to go and see Legally Blonde 2. It was pretty cute, but, nothing great really..pretty much what I expected. I love Reese Witherspoon though, she is really cute. Then, when we were driving home we could see all the fireworks going off around the lakes..it was pretty. Then, Ross came over and we all shot of fireworks for a while. It was pretty fun...except everyone kept making fun of me..but, nah..that's okay..Alycia and I went to Jay's to go swim but, we couldn't figure out how to turn on the pool light..and then, we decided to go back home b/c it was about 1am and I was already tired..yeah, that's about it. Man, i ate sooo much today! GOD! a ton..hmm..oh well, I don't really feel like excersising..maybe I can talk myself into going, but, I doubt it..I think I will just dance around my room a lot..well, bye! <3 Lauren
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| Happy 4th! |
[04 Jul 2003|10:43am] |
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Well, happy 4th of July! I think Alycia is coming over tonight and Nicole might too.. I dunno for sure, if not, I am going to make my mom let me go over to casssandra's...or maybe she won't know. I don't know how that would work..hmm. Well, I am hungry so, I think i am going to eat.. I am tired of thinking about this ana stuff and everything..I mean it's not a good way to live. I think all my life I will be weight consious but, I still want to eat.. I will just be careful and eat healty.
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| So, tired of my life |
[01 Jul 2003|09:23pm] |
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I am so tired of ALWAYS fighting with my mom...it's always over skating..GOD! I am just going to have to give it up...The only thing I have ever wanted was to perform.. I don't know where to go from here..dance? singing? but, that all cost money...17 is a hard age, you are stuck in the middle from being a child and an adult. I wish i just knew what was going to happen to me...You know I hate to say this but, I have always dreamed of being famous one day. I thought, somehow it would happen through skating, but, I don't think it will.. I can kind of sing, but I have never sang for anyone before and I am afraid of being bad..god, why must growing up be so tough?
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[30 Jun 2003|06:26am] |
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my mom has taken away everything from me... she wants to purposly make me miserable...that's all she wants. I did nothing wrong for her to be mad at me. I am sick of this bs.. it's like my whole family is against me. My grandma and grandpa are b/c they believe mom...and won't listen to me, b/c I am just the stupid kid who doesn't know what she wants.. GOD! I called my dad last night and he thought mom was being rediculous. Man! I didn't do anything wrong, I guess I am just not allowed to go out and see movies with friends... I guess that's the lesson I learned... I can't go out and spend the night at a friends house and watch movies, and if i do.. i am the worst kid in the world..and apparently.. the makes me a "white-trash whore" ..that hurts too, my mom told me tha " she used to be proud of me..but, not anymore" yeah...
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| My mom needs to grow up |
[29 Jun 2003|11:06am] |
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I just wrote this long long entry about this weekend how I got kicked out of the house and everything..but, I clicked on this link and tried to go back..but EVERYTHING was GONE!!! DAMNIT!
ok, well...here I'll do a very shortned version of it..
Basically,
mom gets mad at me for no reason.. I tell her i am going to the movies..she calls me anyways gets mad thinks I am out partying or something...i am like oh yeah mom.. i like to party at 7pm.. yeah, i am out doing drugs, ok, jk mom, i am at the movies...then, she gets mad hangs up... i go back home, she tells me to get out and leave! She doesn't want to see me.. I get mad, spend 2 nights over at cassandra's...now, i am home, she isn't...but, I think my mom needs to grow up and start acting more like an adult...
yeah, that's basically it..left out a few things, but, that's the basics..anyways, i hate my mom right now..and I CAN'T WAIT TO LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!
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[27 Jun 2003|11:29am] |
uhh.. i hate being fat!
Hey, how do you put picture in your posts?
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| AHHH |
[26 Jun 2003|09:14pm] |
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You know..I made this deal with myself to atleast not have over 1,400 calories a day till the 4th of July...and which, is more than i should be eating in the first place, but I figured I needed that much atleast to still have enough energy for all this working out I am doing..and ok..it's now like WTF? I keep eating and eating..way over 1,400 calories..and I got a new swim suit today, i tried it on, and was like ok, not too bad, just loose like 5 more lbs and it will look great..but, the second after I take it off I go eat some more..DAMN it LAUREN!! God! I don't know how to stop snacking all the time, I am always eating when i am not hungry..it's so irritating! I need some tips on how to stop! Well, I am exhausted...thank god tomorrow is friday, then, THE WEEKEND! YAY! I get to rest! wooHoo!
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| A little update.. |
[25 Jun 2003|05:28pm] |
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Well, nothing new has really happened.. I am skating as usual... I went to Vance yesterday and he told me that i had gotten better, he made me sore today!!! The back of my legs and arms are sore, oh well...hmm..well, Cheryl is back and my field moves are ok, I still can't land all my jumps... I don't want to go to Cannon but, we'll decide at the last minute if I'll go or not she said...hmm..well, I have just been over at Cass's mostly after skating.. we swim and that's about it really..well, i am going to go..later!
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| *sigh |
[21 Jun 2003|02:23pm] |
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Wow..what a weekend, I am not going to go into great depth but, i will go into more later..b/c I am going to go to bed here in a bit. All I can say that this weekend, I got a glimpse of a good guy... I have never ever liked someone like I experienced this weekend...and he left tonight and it's driving me crazy but, i know I am just stupid for feeling this way b/c he would never like me plus.. I am 17 he is 21... he lives in San Angelo, I live in Dallas, and how would he be interested in me? There is no way b/c I seem to always attract different types than him..sigh..why oh why am I doing this to myself??? GOD! I don't want to feel this, it's something I will never get and I just don't want to think about it..blah! It was just a good weekend, and after tomorrow I'll get back into the regular routine and things will once be the same.... well, I am calling it an early night..goodnight everyone!
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| I'm growing fatter by the second.. |
[19 Jun 2003|01:43am] |
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I ate so much yesterday! BLAH! I had over 1,600 calories before dinner...then, cass asked me to go to dinner with their family...and I went and so, I ate chips and we had faitas..then, they had to order a margarita pie..so, umm SHHIIITTT. God, I hate it, I work out so much and so hard then, I just go and eat a lot, and it's not junk food or anything, a lot of what i eat is healthy ( exception to dinner), I just eat massive quantities, or I just snack a lot, I can't quit snacking.. I really need to stop that.
hmm...well, last night I just chilled with cassandra, we went random party searching, but found nothing..so, yeah.. and apparently she was playing a joke on David and she made up this sn saying that she was this girl named Les and sent him this picture of Les...and so, david thought she was georgous and they started talking, Les and David..but, actually Cass and David, david just didn't know...and he asked for Les's phone number..so, cassandra gave him her's, well, the phone she is using...and she figured david would recognize it was her...and the thing is HE NEVER DID..and so, now he is falling madly in love with this girl named Les that he has never met. He is constantly talking about her, how awesome she is etc... and that he just wants to be with her. I think he could just be playing cassandra and he knows it's her..but, I don't know... Yeah, and david invited Les to a party the other night, and cassandra didn't know what to do, so, she made Les get in a car wreck and is in critical condition at the hospital...and now, David is blaming himself for the wreck..so, hmm...what to do. He could be playing cassandra, or he could be serious, but we can't tell him the truth b/c he is one of those guys that doesn't take that kind of stuff well...so, I don't know
Ok, and me on the other hand, I want to go back to El Chico, and see if I see Chris..lol... man, i don't know lately I have been wanting a bf...just someone there you know... It's weird it's like I just started feeling this way, b/c before I was just like screw guys! I hate them all!! Now, I want one...but, see knowing me, I'll meet another jerk and it will start all over again...SCREW GUYS! yep, most likely.
Well, I gtg get ready to take my skates in to be sharpened..so, later friends!
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| Another morning |
[17 Jun 2003|11:29pm] |
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I am so tired this morning.. I couldn't sleep last night..*sigh, as usual. Man, I wish I could just fall asleep like a normal person! man!!!!!!!!! Ok, I am tired of my CD burner..it won't finalize the cd, or for some reason my cd's end up all scratchy..damn, oh well..hmm.. I am off to skate..lata
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| Man oh man |
[17 Jun 2003|12:08pm] |
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I just got back from dinner with my mom and man, there was this georgous guy working at El Chico.... man, He had really dark hair, it was kind of spiked up..and pretty tall and fit..man, just my type and he seemed nice. He brought us our food and when we were leaving he was kind of over there and he came over to the door to say bye and I looked into his eyes and OHHHH man, he had the bluest eyes..it was delightful. I know he was looking at me too, man, I want to go back so bad...just why couldn't he have asked for my number? man... hmm..oh well, I am definetly going back there.AHH, what do I do..I want to see him again..damn!!
Ok, well the rest of today was ok, I went skating then had hip-hop class..the dance was hard today, it was real fast. I got it but, I felt rushed pretty much the whole time while doing it. Skating was ok, I didn't fall on an Axel OH YAY ( yeah, that was very much scarcasm, I landed a few good loops and my flips were bad..this is so discouraging that I can't land any of these that I used to have..oh well, atleast I know I am fixing all my bad habbits from before. I know my spins are better atleast and I am getting in much better shape atleast...yeah, well when I came home I went running and then, had to clean the barn and etc... went tanning that stuff. Nothing great, the usual stuff.
Well, wish me luck in seeing Chris again...man, I know he was looking at me b/c he was smiling when he gave us our food at me..yeah, uh huh..lol..haha!!! I AM SUCH A DORK..lol, anyways, bye bye
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| Another morning |
[15 Jun 2003|11:07pm] |
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Well, goodmorning..man, another day of skating, but, I don't have class today..well, I am not doing it b/c everyone is gone. I saw 2 fast 2 furious this weekend, I really liked it, it had a lot more action I think than the first one..it was pretty cool. I liked the girls pink car..it was awesome, I think i am going to get my spoiler hopefully soon.. I am ready to start fixin up my car..well, i better go get ready for skating..lata
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| No lake house :( |
[13 Jun 2003|10:44am] |
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This gay weather is causing us not to go to the lakehouse this weekend.. I am so disappointed.. man! It was the first vacation I was going to go on since 3 years...oh well, that's just my luck. This weather is horrible.. ihate it so, much..blah! I just feel like whining...alright, maybe it's out of my system..hmm.. i am hungry
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